I am so so so hungry.  I can feel it in my mouth in my shoulders, in my calves.  It is an antisapatory, tingling deep desire.  I feel like  I could eat my own head.

The problem?  I just finished a 400 calorie meal.  It is nine at night.  I have taken vitamins, medication, high protien, high whole wheat food (for the most part) and not much sugar.  I have drunk 8 glasses of water.  But I feel the desire to eat, even though I should be healthfully sated.  I have had my 2,000 calories.  I should not be hungry.

Either I have a tape worm, or I am a food addict with binge eating disorder.

I wish it was the tape worm.  I would name it Trevor.♥

I feel….pathetic.

It is pathetic to be afraid of going out for a walk, because I might buy and eat too much food.

It is pathetic to make yourself go to sleep for 3 hours in the afternoon, because at least if you are unconcious you are not eating.

I am supposed to ask myself the question:

What is triggering me?

Notice I am being Triggered

Acknolege the emotion

take 15 seconds to breath

I choose my response.

It works….sometimes.  But sometimes you are in such an out of control state of feeling that you can not start the process, let alone hold some control over it.

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