The Air brushing against my window makes it sound as If I have a ghost doing deep breathing excersizes.  I am beginning to feel the way I did in school, meloncholy, disconnected and difficult to concentrate.  In short, how I felt before I started taking the effexor.

It is called ‘pooping-out’  when your body had adapted to the medication, and is no longer working as effectively.

The prospect terrifies me.  Effexor is the only thing that has staved off the life destroying depression– I could raise the dosage again, but at some point I would run out.

What am I going to do?

I wish I could explain this to someone.  But my mom is freaked out becuase of money problems, and my Dad has never been depressed so does not really understand.  Plus I feel like a jerk complaining when I am living off their largesse at the moment.

I wish someone would fix my head.

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